Now, I often write about how I don't leave my house, and I am a hermit.
Of course, that isn't really true. Since I have moved to Philly I have been going out much more than I did in NY (I am not sure why, but it is true).
However, this weekend I have NOTHING to do. Let me be clear, I am not complaining. Sure, I like to do stuff (and if you can think of something I should do tonight, or tomorrow let me know and I might check it out), it is nice to have nothing to do.
It would be even nicer if there was anything other than crap on tv, though I do have a book to read (several actually, but one in particular).
Ok, so this post is going to be a little ramble through the various things I have been thinking about as of late, so please feel free to skip this post if you like (sure, NOW I tell you).
I have been pondering what I love to do. I like my job, and I love technology, but what is it that will make me happy, professionally?
For as long as I can remember people have told me that I should be some sort of teacher, and that resonates with me. I love education, and not because it is an ends to a means (like many professional schools), but just for the love of learning.
My mother used to often call me the 'absent minded professor,' well not that often, but every so often. So, why am I not in a PhD program (or why don't I already have my PhD?).
That is a very good question. I suppose there are three reasons, two are major while the third isn't as big, and here they are:
- Lack of passion - I couldn't decide what I wanted to do before I graduated from undergrad, so I wasted time thinking about it (what the hell is wrong with me?).
- Lack of money - Good lord, grad school is pricey! And my family is not rich, so I would have to pay for it myself (which isn't a bad thing), so that almost certainly rules out going full time.
- Lack of geographic freedom - At the time I was deciding what I wanted to do grad school wise I was in a long term relationship, so that had an impact on my decision making process. I was very close to going to Emerson for a MFA, but I decided against it because of the money and the distance.
The third reason is no longer relevant (and probably won't be for the foreseeable future). The first reason isn't as bad as it was before because I have a fairly good idea of the type of program that would interest me, but sadly I am still not independently wealthy, however luckily for me I work for a University, so I can take classes on the cheap.
But that still leaves the question, what do I love doing? Blankbaby have really solidified what I like to do for me. Writing is where it is at for me. However, since I am not a genius, or a great writer, I doubt I will ever make a living with my words. However, that is what is so great about blogging, it gives me an outlet for whatever idea is rattling around in my pretty little head (note to self, my head is neither pretty nor little).
I am happy to report that I have started writing something other than a blog, as well. I won't talk about specifics because first novels are invariably awful, but I have having fun writing it, and one day you may even read it (but most likely never on this blog).
And of course I wouldn't be me if I didn't think that everything I write is crap (including this very post!).
So, that's what has been on my mind as of late, what about you?
